Elese Coit

These months have been jammed with growth and leaps of faith.  No sooner did I toot my radio show's first year anniversary whistle, then I found myself saying Yes to starting a second show.   An act of fearlessness, for sure, since on Friday's show I speak with guests and it's all very fireside chat ... whereas Wednesday, the new show is just me.

                             Gulp.       It's an interesting thing, a leap of faith. 

Interesting, because of the both the 'faith' part, and the 'leap' part.  When you really, really decide to no longer consent to a life half lived, full of compromises, and stuff you don't want to do, then there is an immediate recognition that wherever that  that leads, the one thing it won't be is - familiar! Yet, still there's the shock of the leap. Must be like when you drop out of a plane on a skydive. (Minus the G-force that makes your face look all funny).  You know you decided to be there, and you want to be, but there's that split second of total terror.

Thinking about jumping out of a plane seems a lot tougher than opening my mouth live on air, but it's my leap and I jumped....  That in itself has given me a new perspective on the 'faith' part too.  I have to say, I've not so much 'faith' as a better attitude.  I realize that I simply accept that it could simply not work out, not be fun, or good, or interesting to others. For some reason, that doesn't bother or worry me. (though I'm aware of the idea that I could make all of those things devastating potential outcomes - ergo - reasons to shrink back from the ledge).    What most fascinates me is that I see all those scenarios as potentials and I am OK with them all. I mean what can I do?  All I can do is, as Anthony de Mello says, "show up and dance my dance". 

The thing about a leap, is you do end up in the unknown... and that could be a place of massive failure, but it could also be the most satisfying pit stop of my life. 

I just can't know unless I leap.

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Oh,  the last newsy bit is that I wanted to try to find a way to display radio archives so they are searchable by keyword.  Just felt people might want to look up what's important to them by topic and find resources...please bear with me as I am still getting all the shows archived but again... Fingers crossed. x